I'm not much into blogging, I don't like painting my life all over the net, especially when the picture's not that impressive. However, the more I hear of old friends/enemies/acquaintances in my old town in the Central West of NSW, the more I think it's better that I at least have some record of what's happened to me since leaving Canowindra, for the people I wish I'd known/treated better.
After leaving Canowindra at the start of 2006, I moved to Newcastle to live with a friend, where I looked for work and made more connections with people in Sydney (Newcastle is pretty far but it's still easier then Canowindra) that I'd met throughout my travels. While not much financial progress was made there I used the opportunities there to make friends and socialise, as well as keeping off the 70 kilos I lost. Most would have mainly remembered me when I was 140kg with scruffy long hair. I was an ugly mess back then, had to whip myself into shape before I could look at myself in a mirror
After saving some money and getting the nerve up I moved to the inner-west of Sydney, and I've been here since August, studying Journalism at TAFE (I always have liked to talk over others, not necessarily good), and aside from being a shop assistant on the North Shore I recently started reporting on theatre and performance art in the inner city for the Sydney City Hub. Anyone who remembers me would be surprised by that, I seemed destined to be stuck with computers for my whole life, but I couldn't bear that thought.
Since moving here I've met a ton of people in media, entertainment, and the gay community. I'm not sure how many people back home know I'm gay, the parents know but I never really made much of an effort to let people know. In country towns you always wonder if you're going to get the tar beaten out of you for it. I also got over all the medical problems I was known for, as well as that mean streak, the move was a life changer. Part of this blog's existence is simply to serve as an admission of guilt, I was a bastard of the worst kind back in Canowindra and I wish I'd played my cards better with my 'friends' and acquaintances.
To anyone I ditched or slighted back there, I'm sorry, would have been better if I'd known you now. I probably will try hunt down old friends and link them to this, it's an odd way to do it but I like the confessional aspect of it, and maybe I can at least have a chat with some of them. Best wishes to all!
EDIT: Anyone curious as to my email address should note it's been the same since I was 11, darkstardeity@hotmail.com
